I have to keep checking how old MM is getting each week, as time is just running away with us lately. It’s almost been 5 months since she joined the family fold and 3 became 4.
I’ve written before about getting to know her (and her us). After 5 months I’m really starting to forget how things were when it was just the 3 of us.
There were concerns before she arrived, about how hard it would be. Not just physically, but mentally and emotionally too. I think most mums do worry about adapting. First time round, I was a shell shocked new mum and wasn’t sure how I was meant to feel, never mind what I was meant to be doing with this little person who had entered our lives. We’d gone from being young free and reckless…popping out whenever we wanted…cinema trips…weekends away (remember that?!). It all vanished over night. First time round is definitely the game changer! Second time round however, the ‘unknowns’ are different. You know ‘roughly’ what to expect…you know nothing lasts forever and you have already made the big life switch. Second time is a different beast altogether…How would I be able to love them both? Would I have a favourite and feel guilty…oh and what if it’s obvious to them? How on earth will I manage to do anything around the house?
I kick myself for being silly…ofcourse I would love them both. Love takes many different forms and my love for each of them differs in ways but I’m besotted equally with them both. I’m also glad to say that now the tricky first 12 weeks have passed, we are finally hitting a groove. We have set nursery days for Munch, set nap times for MM and it’s generally a pleasure. I honestly can’t believe it! Don’t get me wrong…I still totally freak out when hubs goes away for work (not that uncommon where we live) but I have amazing friends who tell me what I need to hear and remind me that I can do it and it’s not forever.
We really hit the jackpot with Munch. She is adoring her new role as a big sister. Another worry second time round is the big J, but it hasn’t raised it’s head yet. They just adore each other and MM will smile endlessly for Munch…it brings me to tears that this little bundle who can’t communicate yet can express her admiration so clearly.
I hope the bond between our gang of 4 lasts forever.